SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA KE 48!!

Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson

seems like just yesterday
you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
your arms around me tight
everything felt so right
unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

no I can't breathe, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright
for once in my life
now all that's left of me
is what I pretend to be
sewed together but so broken up inside

no I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

swallow me then spit me out
for hated you I blame myself
seeing you, it kills me now
though I dont cry on the outside anymore
anymore

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

Source : http://kckellyville.com/lyrics

Best la harini. Mood aku ok. Pertamanya sebab esok Jumaat. Cuti. Hehee. Esok nak gi kenduri opismate (Kak Huz) kat Seremban. Selamat pengantin baru... Then secondly tadi aku terserempak dengan member sekolah lama! Dah la aku dah lost contact. Phone number semua dah takleh pakai. Dalam dua tiga harini gak aku memang tetiba teringat kat member2 sekolah lower form. Dulu masa sekolah menengah aku belajar dua sekolah. Satu sekolah harian biasa kat Ampang sampai form 3, then asrama kat Cheras sampai form 5. Member2 form 5 still contact. Member2 lower form yang dah lost contact. Tetiba tadi terserempak. Aku kat seberang jalan sini, dia seberang jalan sana. Dari jauh aku nampak macam kenal je minah ni. Tapi gaya dia dah lain. Tu aku tak sure sangat. Tapi dia menoleh ke arah aku. Aku pon terus lambai. Betul lak dia. Hehhe. Terus aku lintas then ambik nombor phone lah. Happy gile. Rindu ngan member2 lama. Then sampai lak kat opis, member lower form gak call. Sembang2. Okla kan. Memang dalam minggu ni terasa macam nak contact je semua member lower form. Tapi tu lah, susah gak nak jejak balik. Tapi takpe. Kalau ada masa aku try contact lagi yang lain...

Then cuti yang aku apply pun approve. Bestnye cuti 2 hari. Ingat nak ajak mak ngan ayah gi shopping raya. Tak shopping lagi nih. Kang dah puasa tak larat lak. Lagipon awal bulan gaji tengah banyak lagi. So bleh ler belanja diorang sket-sket. Diorang pon nak gi haji lepas ranya nanti. Nak carik kelengkapan nak gi haji sekali. Tapi tatau la diorang nak gi haritu ke tak. Tapi takpelah. Yang penting aku dapat cuti dan rileks. Tapi next week manager aku suruh settlekan sebanyak mungkin keje aku before cuti. I hope I can clear the documentations sign off as soon as possible.

Morning everyone.. Harini aku puasa. Takde mood sangatlah harini nak buat keje sebab semalam bersungguh2 aku buat keje. Letih. So pagi ni aku dah apply cuti 2 hari. Tak tau lah manager aku nak approve ke tak. Aku nak berehat. Aku tak suka buat keje skang ni. Settle documentation. Kena susun docs, buat filing dan paling aku tak suka fotostat. Ntahler... Bila la nak dapat projek lain plak. Aku nak buat application. Bukan documentation. Ok la. Malas dah nak cite pasal keje. Takde apa yang menarik pon.

Boring...... Don't know why this word become my favourite word since the last few months. Project I'm working on is still never ending story. Boring tul.. Aku rasa baik banyak keje dari takde keje. Bukan la takde keje langsung. Ada. Tapi keje yang aku tak gemar. Supposed project ni dah bleh close. Tapi user gile punya cerewet. Nak documents semua sign. So aku dah jadik serupa 'ceti' kejar user untuk dapatkan sign. Pastu kena lak deal dengan sesetengah user yang banyak cekadak. Sign aje lah. Diorang dah guna dah pun application tuh. Tapi lagi nak argue nape spec ni macam ni macam tu. Hishhhhh. Mencabar kesabaran betul. Dah la aku memang tak suka sangat keje yang kena deal dengan orang ni. Kena cakap elok2, jaga hati user. I feel like a fake version of me. I'm not that kind of person. But I need to do it as it is part of my work... I really hope we will get a new project so we can move out from this place. Face new challenge.

Harini hari Isnin. First day of the week. Memang liat betul nak bangun tadi. Ni pon aku tengah update blog. Aku malas nak gi jumpa user. Kejap2 lagi lah aku gi jumpa. Biasa la. Nak kena susun ayat dulu. Harap2 diorang sign jer. Tak banyak cerita. Kat sini pun dah tak ramai dah. Ramai yang dah balik office. Aku la yang still dok kat sini. Stuck in herre...

Ni pun dah nak ujung bulan. Duit pun tak berapa nak ada dah ni. Aku pon tatau apsal gaji aku bulan ni mengalir macam air. Ntah apa ntah yang aku beli. Start next month aku kena plan and budget betul2 duit aku. Kalau macam ni lah gayanya... tak kawin le jawabnya. Hehehe. Asyik takde duit je. Shopping aje. Biasa la pompuan.... Cakap pasal shopping ni, aku memang suka gak shopping. Tapi bila terkenangkan duit, terpaksa la dilupakan. Beli pun pilih2 yang murah jer. Tapi jeles la aku tengok orang shopping macam2. Tapi yela sebab aku skang ni kena bayar hutang. Tu yang berat dah sket. Hutang keta, hutang PTPTN. Fuhh muda2 lagi dah berhutang. So window shopping je la jawabnya. Tapi best gak window shopping sebab bleh ushar trend baru. Tak beli pon takpela asalkan tau....

Finally...

Finally I found a new hobby. Writing blog. Even though I'm not good in writing, I think this is the best way to throw away my boringness (is there boringness word in English?). Hehe. Enough for now. Want to continue my work.